Dear Universe, What day is it today?
Behind the scenes of highlights flashed through stories and articles of living your best life summarized of what life should be, we still never quite talk about how“ mamma said they’ll be days like this”. Why do we still seek perfection if it doesn’t exist? Life is not perfect, and no one knows how our days will end up until it’s morning debut rises. This is how all our days begin; it all starts as we awaken our eyes and reach for our phones, extra large cups of coffee, clocks, glasses, our voices turned facing Alexa or a tightly rolled pack of flowers.
One day you don't want to get out of bed, and you don't know why and it doesn’t mean you're depressed you literally just need a rewind button for five more minutes. One day you listen to four hours of non-stop motivational and inspiring podcasts and ready to face the world. One day you put gangster rap on and fade into the abyss of haters v.s ballers shot callers because you ain't that son fool so don't get messy on the streets. One day you wake up, and you're in a sweet bliss of gratitude and in a deep calmness that not even the 405 traffic can perplex this insane deep nam renge kyo tranquility. One day you're foaming out the mouth with ideas like Einstein on Adderall, and you've figured out the secret society, A1 sauce to conspiracy theories and so woke that your pupils are bleeding out of your chakras. One day you feel so alive, about your purpose and how it’s whistling through your ear canal like a soothing lyric among the noise of chaos and you’ve muted all the judgment that wraps up our senses in this world. One day you’ll ask does this matter, what matters and you'll be contemplating and second-guessing every truth, fact, opinion, or perceptions that come along the way. One day you’ll curse out the next person who uses the word “energy, transcendence, positivity in the same sentence because clearly, the universe wasn't having your back when lousy news woke you up this morning. One day you’ll wish, want, declare and release goals, dreams, and desires on an 8x10 vision board for abundance and become addicted and obsessed with the next Deepak Chopra 21 day medication course. Nevertheless searching profusely to find an affordable soulcation in India to experience your own Eat, Pray, Love Journey. One day your boss or your client will be a total douche bag, and the only words you have for them rhymes with “Knock off”.
One Day you’ll wake up and eat a full box of Krispy Crème bop your head to YOLO and impulse shop on Amazon until guilt kicks up at 2 pm with your sugar crash and Checking account notifications. One day you’ll be scrolling on Instagram and part of your self will begin to cringe and devour the mini insecurities and second guess your job, body, life, partner, hobbies, cat, dog, bird, vacations and you’ll quickly find your self on quora.com asking away. One day you’ll run into an old colleague or school mate and begin meaningless conversations about the weather and pretend to accept an invitation to catch up on how he or she is now a partner at a law firm. They have a nanny, personal trainer and plastic surgeon on speed dial while you scoop up poop from daisy and covered in spit-up from your newborn. One day you'll lock yourself in the bathroom while your toddler screams and you give in to morning ice cream and cake, hours of screen time, avoiding to change a dirty diaper and all you want is a glass of wine at 9am to help you to the finish line of 8 pm. You begin to sob and doubt being a mother and settle for a game of candy crush to ease your meltdown with an afternoon session of Pintrest and reruns of the Price is Right as your background soundtrack to indulge in some nostalgic memory of staying home from school.
One day you'll look at the sunset from your front door with a yummy hot cup of coffee or tea inhale the fresh breeze and then it all goes away when you get the worst call of your life that a family member just passed. One day you’ll be on vacation and begin to feel a rush of sadness as the last day approaches wondering how could you ever survive the rat race. One day you want to save the world, end poverty, cure cancer and give up your entire life to help others but then realize your not Angelina Jolie and you goe back to your regular scheduled programming. One day you’ll have the biggest fight with your partner and think, is this it, will we survive, who does this for one hundred years, what does death do us part mean, and you'll feel like everything is against you. One day you'll write in your journal and planner random words, random doodles and while your imagination lifts off into another realm, you quickly realize you’re not in college anymore and need to get it together. One day after the first 24 hours of a new fitness regime you’ll check yourself out on a full-size mirror looking for your peeking abs and guns. One day you’ll love your life. One day you’ll hate your life. One day you'll get that raise, that business loan, that huge opportunity, that degree and think that you are on the highest of them all and want to savor this day, today this moment so it can continue lingering into tomorrow. One day you’ll pitch that product or service, write to that agent, go to that audition, bid for that contract and the thick layer of rejection comes down tumbling like a game of Jenga. You feel as if you are not good enough, and the imposter syndrome is breathing down your neck. One day a stranger will say thank you with a warm heart. One day randomly the one you love, your child or your parents will tell you I love you. One day someone will say I appreciate you. One day someone will say I am proud of you. One day you will look in the mirror and embrace yourself with appreciation and self-love.
No matter what day it is for you, make sure you know that it’s okay to have all these days. A life worth living and the true definition of living your best life is knowing that each day will bring something different. Sometimes it might be great sometimes, it might be crappy but know all of your days make up the best part of your road trip of life.